More About Discipline & Self Control

     My Struggle.  Here we go: 

          Well, today…The word “ironic” comes to mind.  This morning, I was celebrating discipline, thinking of how far I’ve come, scoffing at the idea that “no discipline is pleasant at the time.”  I was feeling successful and happy with all of the new disciplines I have added to my life over the course of the week, and I was also happy about the other areas in which I am usually pretty disciplined. 

     This week, I started exercising every day right off the bat.  By the second day, I was drinking 64 ounces of water daily.  Then today, I ditched my usual sugary breakfast and had eggs with low fat cheese mixed in.  Doing so well.  Establishing new habits!  Even if I am only almost a week in—still, that’s victory!  Yay!

     In the midst of these changes, I have not hit the dieting hard-core, but I’ve been trying to watch it, and not go crazy.  Of course, today was all about the crazy.  I just got off track in my day, and started eating.  Then, I ate some more.  Sigh.  Sadness.

     I still did the other things—I had my healthy breakfast, I exercised, and I drank my water…but, I feel so remorseful about the area(s) where I still do not use discipline and self-control.  It might be nice if we could compartmentalize our lives, but discipline and self-control need to be part of everything we do, think, and say.  Without discipline and self-control, all of our plans can be derailed and it can change the face of a day from good to depressing.  Discipline and self-control are virtues that help us to be at peace with ourselves and to accept the blessing that comes with boundaries.

     One of my favorite portions of scripture is in Psalm16.  In it, the Psalmist says, “The boundary lines have fallen or me in pleasant places.”  That tells me that discipline is a safe guard, and it is pleasant.  It keeps us safe, and happy. 

     Tomorrow, it will be time to begin looking at a new power thought.  Today, I am thinking about this big area where I still need the work of discipline and self-control—eating.  What to do?  I think I need a more concrete idea of the boundaries I want to observe in my eating, and I also need some ideas for things to do when I am tempted to eat emotionally.  It’s a little overwhelming to think of all the areas in my life where I need to use more self-control, but I have made progress  this week.  Tomorrow is a new day.

     One challenge I have faced is that I am on spring break this week.  It doesn’t sound challenging, but it means that I have lots of unscheduled time, which I am not used to.  I love the idea of waking up and just meandering through the day getting a few things done here and there, but I am realizing (reluctantly) that I need to make some kind of schedule or plan for the day so that I stay busy and productive and do not get off track with my eating or anything else.  I have tried to avoid planning to much because I want to enjoy my break without a big “to do” list hanging over my head, but I am now thinking that I blueprint for the day with some productive tasks and fun mixed in is the way to go.  Blessings!