More About Discipline & Self Control

     My Struggle.  Here we go: 

          Well, today…The word “ironic” comes to mind.  This morning, I was celebrating discipline, thinking of how far I’ve come, scoffing at the idea that “no discipline is pleasant at the time.”  I was feeling successful and happy with all of the new disciplines I have added to my life over the course of the week, and I was also happy about the other areas in which I am usually pretty disciplined. 

     This week, I started exercising every day right off the bat.  By the second day, I was drinking 64 ounces of water daily.  Then today, I ditched my usual sugary breakfast and had eggs with low fat cheese mixed in.  Doing so well.  Establishing new habits!  Even if I am only almost a week in—still, that’s victory!  Yay!

     In the midst of these changes, I have not hit the dieting hard-core, but I’ve been trying to watch it, and not go crazy.  Of course, today was all about the crazy.  I just got off track in my day, and started eating.  Then, I ate some more.  Sigh.  Sadness.

     I still did the other things—I had my healthy breakfast, I exercised, and I drank my water…but, I feel so remorseful about the area(s) where I still do not use discipline and self-control.  It might be nice if we could compartmentalize our lives, but discipline and self-control need to be part of everything we do, think, and say.  Without discipline and self-control, all of our plans can be derailed and it can change the face of a day from good to depressing.  Discipline and self-control are virtues that help us to be at peace with ourselves and to accept the blessing that comes with boundaries.

     One of my favorite portions of scripture is in Psalm16.  In it, the Psalmist says, “The boundary lines have fallen or me in pleasant places.”  That tells me that discipline is a safe guard, and it is pleasant.  It keeps us safe, and happy. 

     Tomorrow, it will be time to begin looking at a new power thought.  Today, I am thinking about this big area where I still need the work of discipline and self-control—eating.  What to do?  I think I need a more concrete idea of the boundaries I want to observe in my eating, and I also need some ideas for things to do when I am tempted to eat emotionally.  It’s a little overwhelming to think of all the areas in my life where I need to use more self-control, but I have made progress  this week.  Tomorrow is a new day.

     One challenge I have faced is that I am on spring break this week.  It doesn’t sound challenging, but it means that I have lots of unscheduled time, which I am not used to.  I love the idea of waking up and just meandering through the day getting a few things done here and there, but I am realizing (reluctantly) that I need to make some kind of schedule or plan for the day so that I stay busy and productive and do not get off track with my eating or anything else.  I have tried to avoid planning to much because I want to enjoy my break without a big “to do” list hanging over my head, but I am now thinking that I blueprint for the day with some productive tasks and fun mixed in is the way to go.  Blessings!

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Choosing Trust and Stepping Away from Stress

So, my usual M.O. for New Year’s Eve is to panic.  Why?  Typically, I have a list of goals and ideas and resolutions that I want to start on January 1st that is as long as my arm.  I know I won’t be able to do it all, but I cling to the thought that it’s possible, and that maybe I can worry it or reason it into coming to pass!

This year, things are different.

This last couple of days, I have been preparing for tomorrow.  Oh yeah, I know tonight is New Year’s Eve a.k.a. Party Night, but my heart is on tomorrow.  Confession:  I have been a little stressed about it, and even though my sole/soul intention is to trust God, I have felt the pressure of all of the other stuff as well.  What am I talking about?  Well, I am talking about the usual resolution stuff—losing weight, exercising more, reading in a different genre, writing more, keeping up with my blog when the semester starts…All of these goals and ideas spin around in my head and can overwhelm me. 

Still, I am trusting God.  I am trusting God to teach me how to do this trusting thing.  I am trusting him to give me the grace to enter 2011 calm and at peace instead of frantic and high-strung.

Anyway, in the midst of the overwhelm, or perhaps a little outside of it, I have been making my plans and preparations for the big day.  I am excited about the new possibilities and very much looking forward to the Power Thoughts Program.  What else?

Wednesday, I signed up for some classes at our local quilt shop.  I enjoy sewing and making things, but I am usually hesitant to commit to classes.  Well, I said “yes!” to something I wanted to do, and I am now committed to a block-of-the-month club that meets one Sunday per month for sewing and dessert, and I am committed to a Paula Party each month for the first three months of the year.  A Paula Party involves sewing a small project and eating a meal together made up of all Paula Deen recipes.  Did you notice the food + creativity theme?  Those are my kind of classes.

Yesterday, I bought small poster boards and markers (fun!) so that I can make and hang the signs I’m going to use to help get each power thought into my head, heart and spirit.  I also bought a little notebook to use as a gratitude journal.  I love keeping gratitude journals—I wouldn’t feel right if I didn’t do it.  Today, I boxed up the 2011 files and made new files for 2011.  I plan to make clam chowder for supper, and when my sweetie gets home from work, we will eat and relax, watch movies, and greet the New Year together.